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Great Lovely (No X)
01:26
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[the rest of the song is a conversation between will and his mother.]
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Please Be Gone
04:43
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last night i dreamed i tried to get along with the fruit flies in my basement
they told me i could be friends with them as long as i didnt try and kill them
then i tripped on a nail and fell over and i crushed one with my body
and the other flies got sad and a laid on the floor as they all swarmed me
and there were a lot
and when i woke up there were people in tuxedos all around me'
and they took me to their secret base and told me i was gonna die
aaaaaa
ohHHHHHHHH
theres a fire and i cant stop it
theres someone with a gun whos trying to get me to come back
and i stand up and i push them
and i get all in their face
and say well who do you think you are
you know what no no no no thats it
its fall its winter its spring its summer
its fall its winter its spring its summer i said
its fall its winter its spring its summer
its fall its winter
and fuck you get out
get out of my hooouse
im going to kill myself
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im on the balcony
jesus is calling me
i have tried so many fucking times
and ive always failed
ive never not failed
the sea isnt really green goddamn i love the queen
i have decided im ready to die here today
right now here today
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
do you remember jesus cuz i remember jesus
when he was in his prime he could get any bitch he desired
and now hes fucking dead
i remember a time before sadness and hopelessness
just kidding i blocked that time out of my memory completely
wow niki thats really sad just know that im here for you and that youre valid
wow! thanks! please shut the fuck up
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Get Ready Get Loud
02:28
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im not ready for anything at all
im not ready for anyone at all
im always quiet and im always picky
and im always impatient and i make things worse
get ready get loud
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the sun came out after a year
and all the men crawled out of their caves
and all the men attracted mates
and showed off their pretty wings. yeah.
the rich people are guarding the gates
and the poor people stand in front of the gates
and the straight people are having fun
having sex with the gay people who are also having fun
[a loud scream filled with the world follows this]
where did we all come from and where did we all go
and i dont wanna listen if you dont wanna know
i think that we’ll be fine here i’ll fuckin close my eyes
i want your fucking soul, man
i always wanna die all the time
aint it so, aint it true, aint it that easy to?
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“you can be anyone you want to be”
said the man at the [family fare!!!!] grocery
and then i kicked him in the dick and ran away and i accidentally left my dignity behind
if my closet wasn’t all full of shit then i’d gladly hide there forever
and they’ll say
and they’ll say
“i’m proud of you kid, here’s 20 bucks”
[these 20 bucks are unloseable.]
aint it so, aint it true, aint it that easy to
and then i took another walk and i spent another ten
and the off brand soda got to my head
and i saw a vision of you dying just like that painting of jean-paul marat
it took me twenty weeks & twenty days & twenty walks & another ten
and then i realized that we were gonna die together and we’d die apart when we died together
aint it so, aint it true, aint it that easy to
by my own admission: i’m fucking in my head
overleap ambition the world that we left
in the words of angels, in the hands of queens
fuck it, love, live, laugh forever
you’ll see what this brings
would you dare to feel it? could you even try?
i remember your words
just let it pass by
and in that we were lost: are you grieving too?
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7. |
Expresso
06:38
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EXPRESSO
i wasnt going to sleep
cuz i had too much caffeine
there was a bigger person stirring inside of me in
my sleep
i had a dream about you
you were gone
it was 1994
it was the day kurt cobain died
and it was 1942
and its 2007
and it was 1875
there were a lot of racist ghosts
it was a party in 2019
these are a lot of awful people
they could use a bit of caffeine
i could use a bit of medicine
ive got a headache and its really bad
and this isnt the impactful experience i think it is
but i reach into my bag
and i pull out my ipod touch
and i try to call my dad
and he doesnt pick up
and then i try to call my dad
and he doesnt pick up
and i have an interesting thought
it goes what if hes dead
i need to go home
i want to be alone
i want out of my head
i want to go to bed
we were coming back home
it was 2021
i wanted to stay where we were
we couldnt stay where we were at all i was
seeing stars
i dont want you to not be here
thats a lie
and i’m no longer home alone
and i no longer have a phone
& you can kill yourself if you want to
you can kill yourself if you want to
and i’m at least 13
and i wanna change my sheets
and you can go to hell if you want to
in fact, go to hell if you want to and i wont care.
[monologue with my whole heart and my whole mind and my pretty little ears and nose in it.]
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dodododododododododododododododo
i hope you go everywhere
i hope you go everywhere on earth with him
because at some point you'll just get around to me
and i'll go talk to the trees
please remember me
show up at my doorstep
don't think about anything
they made me of brick and ice to use how you want
they made me of rock and flesh to say what you want to hear
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[THE LONG SLEEP]
the other night i met a ghost in my dreams
it was the ghost of you and you were talking to me
and i remember how we loved and i remember all the times
when you were totally normal and i was chronically online
and i’m sorry for sleeping at 11 o’clock
there’s a ghost of a boy and he wants to talk
he is tall and he is handsome and i want him to be mine
and i just want to be loved, is that such a crime?
i profusely refuse to apologize for these wounds
i am above all else a boy with no dignity
i am a husk of a person with nothing left to lose
i’m a piece of shit no matter the line of logic you choose
i am ready for nothing to come
in your fullest form
yes i am ready for you to come at night and claim my soul i am
everything you want, wont you come and take whats mine?
i dont wanna go to sleep if you’re not gonna be alive
[THE LONG SLEEP]
you’ve gotta stop standing in the fog
if you’re lonely then you can go get a dog
if you’re upset then you can go see a therapist
and if you want love you should look for something else to want
you’ve gotta stop standing in the fog
if you want death it’ll come before long
if you want fame then you can get it if you want
and if you need me to lie, dont worry, i already have
stop standing in the fog
stop standing in the fog
stop standing in the fog
stop standing in the fog
go to bed.
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Karass
03:54
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we’re connected
it doesnt feel any better to say out loud
we’re connected
it doesnt feel like a revelation to say that
you and i and you and me and i and you and i me
we’re in a karass
you and i and you and me and i and you and i me
we’re in a karass
if you go to heaven when you die, then i’ll go to heaven when i die
we’re in a karass
and if you go to hell when you die, then i’ll go to hell when i due
we’re in a karass
we’re in a karass.
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11. |
Headless
07:30
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i watched everything fall down, collapse like headless
i touched god and he said, he was worried, oh, headless
i spoke words of the truth and nobody listened, headless
i spoke to the angels and i saw they all were headless
[during the bridge, a monologue occurs. i didn’t realize at the time, but this monologue was a direct ripoff of the monologue from “nervous young inhumans” (2011) by car seat headrest. this is embarrassing.]
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12. |
Please Be Here
06:28
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it hurts me to say that i still love you
it hurts to go outside no matter what i do
and i was gonna write about how im sad
but its 9 in the morning and i dont feel like doing that
it hurts me to say but i dont want you to leave
and i can feel god cursing me every time i breathe
i was thinking about what theyd say at my funeral
“hes a stupid piece of shit and im glad hes dead”
and why?
it hurts me to say but im still upset
and i have bottled up my emotions to the fullest extent
these thoughts will only externalize through this song
and now ill carry them with me until the day that im dead
it hurts me to say but i think im gonna die
the clock is turning faster and the end is nigh
cuz i was sweating a lot but when i opened my eyes
i found that suddenly everything was frozen
last night i dreamed i tried to get along with the monster in my little cave
i told it i would be friends with it as long as it didnt try and kill me
then with clear malicious intent it fell directly on top of my friend
so then me and my friends all got in its fucking face and went “bUuuUUUUUUUUUUUZZZZ” [buzzzzz was the original line but i couldnt get it to work. in hindsight i couldve made it work and i like the new line less but hey what can you do]
last night i dreamed you were dead and when i woke up it felt like you were still dead.
im going to kill myself
it’s not that i wasn’t good enough for you
because you weren’t good enough for you either
and it’s not that you weren’t good enough for me
because i wasn’t good enough for me either
MY DAD GAVE ME THE NEWS YOU WERE DEAD AND I DIDNT GET OUT OF BED FOR DAYS
AND I ROLLED LAZILY OUT OF BED ONE DAY AND THEN WIDENED MY EYES AND STARTED SCREAMING SUDDENLY
I WAS CLUTCHING MY CHEST AND I WAS SOBBING MY EYES OUT AND ROCKING BACK AND FORTH IN A FETAL POSITION
AND THE SHIT THAT I WAS SCREAMING WAS EXACTLY THIS: PLEASE BE HERE PLEASE BE HERE PLEASE BE HERE PLEASE BE HERE
PLEASE BE HERE .
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13. |
A Working Pair of Arms
07:39
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we never talk anymore
except for “hi goodnight i love you”
and ive been meaning to bring this up
but the situation is really awkward
imagine if i told you i think that we should talk more often
and if we’re gonna be together i think that we should talk more often
and the night we started dating we talked about bread for a long time
i just want to want to hold you
i just want you to love me
i just want you to love me
i just want to want to kiss you
i just want you to love me
i just want you to want to want to want to want to want to
i want a working pair of arms
i really did sprain my arm one summer
not like you wouldve ever known
cuz you werent there and i never fucking told you
aint it so. aint it true. aint it that easy to?
[i scream my life away for the remaining two minutes of the song. nobody exists around me. you dont exist and ‘You’ doesn’t exist. nothing is real and i am slipping away and i am ‘You’ and ‘You’ is me. everything stops and turns into liquid and its burning around me. my blood is boiling from the heat of the fire. my skin is stained forever. now i will never forget you or ‘You’ and nobody will forget me because there is no longer anything to forget. i am one with the fire and you and ‘You’ and everyone and everything else. there is nothing that happens beyond this moment. not to me, not to you or ‘You’ or anyone or anything. only silence. always, forever, eternally, silence.]
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[this song has no lyrics i swear haha!!!!!!!! !!!! !,:)))]
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