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Club Onyx
08:32
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(And I'm wondering who could be writing this song)
I will die in this pit of bodies
Of individuals with lives of their own
And my crooked neck will fall
Beneath grimey shoes on this greasy floor
And I will be crushed
I only came here so something wouldn't be you
When I get out of this pit of bodies
And I wash their sweat from my skin
Everything will be you
And I will feel right enough to bleed my last breath
And breathe out all over the couch
And then you'll see what all you were worth
I only went there so something wouldn't be you
I am alone when you want me
I'm afraid when you don't
And I'll bleed through every morning
If you wake up alone
All the skin in the world
That touches mine should be yours
And you could crush my pretty lungs
After I fell on the floor
I could bleed to the rhythm of your breathing
But then you'd get a rag
You know what I want from you
Don't even ask
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2. |
Drowning Song
07:01
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Every time I look down
I have to be reminded
And every time I look up
I still have to be reminded
And it's not your fault
And I'll be okay
And I have to leave
But I have to stay
I love... the... air
It was always with you (find home)
I had something in my pocket
But now I can't get it out
It was always with you (find home)
I was swimming to the bottom
And now I can't get me out
Oh my god it's so cold
Every morning it's so cold
I get up and it's still cold
I get dressed and it's still so cold
I'll pretend like there's something to say
You'll act like I said it in a meaningful way
We've made something up from what used to be real
I don't know who I am if I don't know how you feel
(find home)
I had something in my pocket
But now I can't get it out
It was always with you (find home)
I was swimming to the bottom
And now I can't get me out
It was always with you (find home)
I had something in my pocket
But now I can't get it out
(find home)
I've been swimming to the bottom
And now you can't get me out
You can't get me out
His hands are on my throat!!!
His hands are on my throat!!!!!
His hands are on my throat!!!!!!!
His hands are on my throat!!!!!!!!!
Let's all go swimming
Let's all go swimming
To the bottom of the ocean...
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3. |
I Shake
03:10
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And every dream
Is just the way that I want it
And everything
Will break me if I even touch it
I'm letting you in
To dig a hole in my stomach
And I'll let you sleep
Wherever it is that you wanna sleep
And every love
Is just the same as you've dreamt it
And every time
You try to tell me you meant it
It's always the same
And I don't know how to fix it
But let's play the game
I guess we'll be playing anyway
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4. |
One Day Boys Will Cry
06:46
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And then there’s hardly any room with room for me
I have to get comfortable with the new world
The feeling doesn’t seem real
Until it reaches out and we butt heads all over
Well I don’t wanna burden you
I’m just here to bring you your water bottle
I’m here so let’s talk for 20 minutes
About how I broke it all again
Please stop promising things
Please don’t say what you said
It was how it was when you breathed my name
Please stop leaving me things
Please stop walking away
It was how it was when I begged you to stay
When I had to go to summer camp
I was supposed to learn to start a fire
But I couldn't do it
And it was so cold
So I cried into the kindling
And was gazed at by my peers
I am equally as childish
As when I was a child
Please stop promising things
Please don’t say what you said
It was how it was when you breathed my name
Please stop leaving me things
Please stop walking away
It was how it was when I begged you to stay
And every night my dream's the same
I wake up screaming out your name
I try to blink away your heart
I start to fall back to the start
If I could crawl inside your dreams
And show you what it really means
I'd scrawl my name across your eyes
And pray it wouldn't make you cry
Well now there’s a violin
It’s what your voice sounds like
On all those days I spent
I longed for your arms
Just as I do
And I know when we get there
And we’re both so in love
You’ll still go back home
But I won’t forget
And I’ll tell you it’s not fair
And that I’m still in love
But I’ll have to go back home
And be full of regret
Well now all I can do is hope
The worst and most selfish hope
One day you will cry
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But don't you think I could change this time
And I'll do anything to stay in your life
And don't you think I could change this time
I don't know why you don't want me anymore
I don't know why you're just now closing that door
Isn't it funny how it wasn't that long ago
I don't know why you're so inclined to move on
I don't know why I don't know how to be strong
I don't know why you aren't taking that long
You're acclimated to a world without me
And it's so stupid I don't have anything
And I know exactly what I did
I remember we would sleep together every night
And lately I've had days where I thought maybe it could be alright
Serene in some ethereal way
But now it's chasing me back into the mess I made
Isn't it funny
How I used to be
The happiest girl in the world
Isn't it funny
Now thinking of you
Is the worst thing I can do to myself
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You left your sweatshirt with me and you said that it was mine
You left me just to feel your absence growing more with time
I'd hate to see you throw away the things you care about
I'd hate to see you take back all the things that you threw out
I know that you're still shaking but I don't quite know what from
I've got to keep my eyes peeled before you fall out of love
I know you aren't happy and you won't be for a while
But I can never change anything; in every hallway I see your smile
And I'll be gone by the time you wake up
(maybe I wasn't enough)
(maybe I wasn't enough)
And you'll be gone by the time I shut up
(maybe I wasn't enough)
(maybe I'm still not enough)
The sickness in your belly that you threw up in my sink
Your arms limp on the counter as you asked me for a drink
Your eyes just looked so vacant though I wanted you the same
I handed you your drink but I was driving you insane
You said so in the morning and you said so after dark
I turned you over in my head and you tore the walls apart
I told you I was sorry and you said that didn't help
You told me I should give up and I thought I might as well
And I'll be gone by the time you wake up
(maybe I wasn't enough)
(maybe I wasn't enough)
And you'll be gone by the time I shut up
(maybe I wasn't enough)
(maybe I'm still not enough)
I let you into my bed when I thought we were alone
I let you into my bed when I thought we were alone
I let you into my bed when I thought we were alone
I let you into my bed when I thought we were alone
I still think that you're the best shot that I've got
And I'll tell you that I love you if you already forgot
I could let you try and bring me back to life
I'll still love you in the morning and we'll still think it's alright
And I'm still here
I'm still here
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7. |
My Dinner With Death
05:03
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Let’s set the scene; I haven’t slept in 3 days
3 knocks on the door of my room
A note on the door, somebody’s here to see me
I get in that car and we’ve driven off to some expensive place
“oh, death, you shouldn’t have!”
It’s the least I can do
“oh, death, you fibber!”
There's an empty spot in this full bed
I have to face this death that I've wed
The door is still locked because he has the key
But I go to bed and he's still calling for me
This pain rises up my leg
This pain ducks into my head
This pain says “I’ll stay the night”
And I always say “that’s alright”
I must be more lost
And more cold
Than anyone else in the world
Oh, death
I’m not imagining that look on his face
It really is as bad as I think
I’ve let you down now
He really hated it
And you’ll hate it just as much
Well I hope there’s one thing you can pick out of this
I’m only singing to myself these days
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8. |
Sleeping Song
08:19
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So this must be it
That final goodnight
Where I waste my effort
To make it alright
I tell you I need you
You tell me I don't
You tell me you need me
To get some good sleep
Well now you can't help me
Any more than I can
And you'll try to tell me
But I won't understand
You tell me you love me
But it's so fucking cold
And all I can do now
Is get some more sleep
Now all of my body
Exists in your arms
But now you can't keep her
Away from that harm
Since now it's not me
And you think you should go
But all you can do there
Is just fall asleep
And all of my body
Is yours now to keep
The tips of my fingers
And the blisters on my feet
I think we've been stuck here
In some kind of dream
Oh baby, I need you
To get some good sleep
I can't feel your lips
When they're pressed against mine
I'm wondering who
Could be writing this song
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9. |
Cut Across That Field
14:38
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I want us to extend our arms to each other
Like two branches intertwined
Like that girl in a field
That poor dying girl
My poor sweet boy
I've been clamping you down
I only want us to be
I wish we could sit in our heads all day
Just me in yours and just you in mine
I wonder what sort of things you might say
Two trees in a field with their branches intertwined
Your poor dying girl can't afford just to die
Isn't it silly, a longing to die?
Isn't it silly, a longing to die?
Isn't it silly, a longing to die?
Something is keeping me here all of the time
We are rooted in this field with our branches intertwined
We were never meant to leave them behind
That poor girl is dying but that boy is alive
Why won't you save me if I'm all that you want?
Why won't you want me when I need to be saved?
There's no getting out of it, you need me alive
You put me on the gurney just to look at me dying
Even though I'm dying, I still believe in you
Even though you let me, I still believe in you
Even though you're leaving, I still believe in you
Even though it's over, I still believe in you
Even though you love me, I still believe in you
Even though I love you, I still believe in you
Even though you're home, I still believe in you
Even though it's over, I still believe in you
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